Close Your Eyes; Breathe

Close Your Eyes; Breathe

Close Your Eyes; Breathe by Karen on Vango


It still can be.

It is a victim blaming phenomenon disguised in cloak of respect of medical and moral authority with institutionalized disrespect of, so believed, inferiors fictionalizing the whole way we understand social human behaviors in conflicts and void of love.

It is a strange stereotyping and blaming of behaviors, that is, coping behaviors, that rest on many factors of different people’s lives and identities in different ways. An umbrella term that lacks proper articulation. Words are missing and hard to find.But clarity can be achieved.

Depression was mostly laid upon women more than any group historically but since the 1990’s has become a common term for everyone. This is now largely due to the marketing of chemicals such as anti-depressants by chemical companies and the medicalization of more aspects of human life..

Depression is one form of a state that results from oppression.

It is when you feel powerless; when you’ve lost your ability to fight back or get up one more time and face the burdens laid at your life’s door. It is when you lost the capability of doing what the world wants of you and what you want of yourself.

And your oppressor’s voice and teachings are inside your head demanding to know…what is wrong with you? Why are you not productive and functioning in the world? Why do you have low feelings and no energy?

You’ve lost the ability to participate in your own oppression and something quits inside on you as a direct result of your truest nature when forces of oppression have come and taken you past your limits. You’ve given up hope because you have no way out – of yourself.

That is, out of the oppression you don’t know you are in.

You don’t even have the language. There is no story so you find substitutes of the real one in exchange for some relief. You don’t know what is going on. You just know you can’t go on.

You feel something heavy. Burdened. It is oppression.

They say a black cloud descends over you and it is fashionable to say it is your chemicals in your body that are the problem. An imbalance of chemicals. But that the chemicals you need come directly from being creative, loved, happy and free.

Perhaps you’ve gone to work or school every day for a few decades doing the same thing over and over and over and over and over and over. You know how to be an automaton; a cog in the big machine of social functioning of society’s industry. You know how to function in a robotic state even in your most intimate moments when you perform to keep everything looking good on the outside and to keep everything the way you think it should be.

Perhaps part of the black cloud is exhaustion, because you’ve just been through days, months or years of trying to keep up or reach something, accomplishment, or you’ve just been through a hell that you can’t talk about. There are those hells we don’t speak about all over. Something invisible has happened. Something no one sees cause they aren’t looking and because you are not important. You just don’t have the words. Sometimes they call it stress cause they don’t have the words either. Another umbrella word. Stress may be jumbled emotions but you have learned well to not let feelings get in your way.Your brain is suppose to keep you dragging your body around.

But no matter what it is you have felt forced and you have to force yourself in social demands against your natural being. Your thoughts and feelings are part of the heavy weight you sense.

Thoughts and feelings that are buried deep within and so automatic from long ago, you do not notice their existence. Thoughts and feelings that can not make it out to expression because natural and spontaneous expression is taken in an oppressive situation.

External demands are part of the oppression and you don’t understand. They have made their way inside you and are now internal demands; more of the heaviness you feel.

You’ve been so caught up in the demands that embody the social oppression that you lost touch with what’s true inside you and out. With oppression denied, you can easily be convinced that something is wrong inside you. That something is oppression, but you are powerless. Over and over the forces of opression trample you but you don’t see them as oppression and you lose your natural energy.

It is machine-like energy that you know and you need recharging.

Organic expression is thwarted and isn’t an option because somewhere along the line you got pushed aside. There is too much fear, fear of being an inferior human, fear of being out of the comfortable box. Lost with yourself, it is safe to submit to the oppressor’s language, agenda and rules. Punishments are harsh. You even look for someone to direct you, help you, tell you what to do cause to be a free agent is directly opposite of oppression. A free spirit can not exist in oppressive situations and is devalued and actively treated with disdain.

In an oppressive situation, there are always consequences for taking your freedom in your own hands. For many the better choice is to play the sick card, take some pills and stay in the oppression. But in the long term, that’s not a good choice because it adds to the burdens and the inevitable is inevitable. But more than anything, it comes from a change of beliefs and the first is to believe that there is a way out of such a state of existence.





  1. I have to respectfully disagree with you. It is not just popular to say that chemicals in your brain cause depression, but it is scientifically accurate in the same way that it is scientifically accurate to say that chemicals in your brain cause happiness, boredom, and all of the other emotions that we as humans feel (it’s important to remember that emotions are really the reaction that our consciousness [whether you believe that to be a scientific or spiritual entity] has to the chemicals that are released in our brain in responce to outside stimuli. Similarly, these emotions may be altered through the introduction of outside chemicals such as antidepressants, and these emotions are no less real or natural than others. I view it as irresponsible to decry these drugs when they actually help a lot of people, and there are many people who refuse these drugs even though these drugs could help them. For example, the author David Foster Wallace had been depressed for 20+ years, but was on an antidepressant that reduced his symptoms, and so, believing that he needed to get off the drugs, he weaned himself off the antidepressants, only to become severely depressed once again and ended up killing himself. There is a serious conversation that one could have about the commercialization and capitalization of such drugs, or the usefulness of other methods for relieving depression that may work better for some people, but I disagree with decrying these drugs altogether

    I also would, to put in my own two cents, say that even though oppression may very well cause depression sometimes, and/or women may be misdiagnosed with depression because of the patriarchy’s refusal to acknowledge their feelings of being oppressed, depression also very much so effects people of all different backgrounds, privileged or oppressed, and it is very chemical for many people, having a lot to do with genetic predisposition.

    Additionally, I take issue with the definition of oppression which this article seems to imply which is that oppression is any changes to your internal self that the external society has created (and I apologize if I am wrong about you implying this definition). There seems to be a fatal flaw in this reasoning to me, which is that you are making a differentiation between the external circumstances and the internal self, whereas I think it is not an unreasonable claim to say that all external circumstances are viewed through an internal lens, and all internal emotions are reactions to external circumstances, meaning that the internal lens of a person is one and the same as their external circumstances. What I mean to say is that saying that oppression is any change which external circumstances force upon someone’s internal being seems to me to be a logical fallacy, cause there is a base assumption that there is an internal being that the person was supposed to become while in reality there is no internal being that a person was supposed to turn into, there is the only internal being that they did become, which is largely due to their external circumstances (and genetic predispositions which I suppose could be bundled into their external circumstances).

    I don’t mean to say that anything you’ve said is wrong, I merely seek to disagree with you, and perhaps be thought provoking for you. I’m also very aware that I come from a privileged background (white, upper-middle class, male American; just about as privileged as it gets), and I don’t mean to say that oppression does not exist, I just disagree with the definition of it that seems implied by this article. I also don’t mean to say that the label of depression has not been historically misused, and misused in the present day to oppress women. I don’t know the history of the diagnosis, but that sounds entirely plausible to me, I just mean to say that I think depression definitely exists in a sense besides its oppressive use.

    Thanks for taking the time to read my massive comment. Have a nice day.


    • I appreciate your interest. I think what you read from the article and how you respond tells me how you think. Not how I think.
      Maybe you missed some of my other writings. I certainly can’t share ALL of what I think in a few paragraphs. You can read more here: https://karendee57.wordpress.com/2012/03/26/three-words/ I do think there is an event in which the word depression fits. I, however, think stereotyping behaviors in mass production mode for masses of people casts a wide net that catches many things in it. You have to clarify how we treat ‘groups’ of people versus individual ones. I write this article not for those who find their beliefs and behaviors working but for those many who might find changing the words and story can change their experience. So this article may not be for you. That’s fine. I also know that a belief is not changed by any evidence. That’s why it is a belief – no evidence needed. But if you decide to question your belief, you might want to not overlook the research or historical investigation that is critical, but largely marginalized, about the mental health industry and it’s history. If you haven’t experienced oppression, then how would you be able to know it to agree or disagree? It seems that one would have to have an experience to know it. Like if a woman gives birth to a baby, well then, a doctor or a observer might describe the experience but only as a witness. That is also what is problematic with Eurocentric White Male Psychiatry, words are defined by witnesses in ways that discriminate and are prejudiced against those whose experiences are devalued. You can adventure into words written by Black Psychologists or Female Psychiatrists on Depression – if you want. For example,It’s no coincidence that white male psychiatrists labeled battered women with paranoia and schizophrenia while denying the rapes and violence against women, or that they labeled women who wanted to be doctors or artists with hysteria, or black slaves with drapetomania, etc.etc. Drapetomania was the term they gave to slaves that ran away. A ‘sickness’ that disappeared after slavery ended. So if you are interested, there is much to learn and my background on this topic is not just some ‘opinion’,it comes after many years research and study. I appreciate the respect in which you replied and I want to be as respectful in kind. This technology is limiting and problematic in how two human beings might get to know each other as backgrounds do not show up in a few paragraphs and we are forced to fill in what we don’t know with our own ideas. Again, thank you for engaging on an important topic.


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